I bit my tongue so hard today that I almost bled.
And it wasn't because I take pleasure in hurting myself. I was trying to stop the tears from clouding my vision into oblivion as I watched my best friend try on her first wedding dress. That's when it hit me. As I was looking at her, I realized the true meaning of the words, "Life is a gift." Here she was, experiencing this magnificent moment of getting ready to spend the rest of her life with the person she loved most in the world. A man who I know based on my own witnessing will take care of her as long as they both shall live (no pun intended). And not just in the obligatory sort of way, but in the way that gives without expecting to take in return. I envisioned their children and their life together as they grow older. Life truly is a gift. This was the perfect example of what we don't see, when we are out of touch with the blessing around us.
And life is not merely a gift, but it is also an adventure. I think of how my mother moved across the world by herself to complete her degree in a completely foreign land. I think of her having three kids, watching them grow and being a part of their accomplishments and success. Life is such an adventure; in all it's impatience, craziness, heartbreak, and beauty. It is so beautiful.
And as I stood there, facing a side mirror pretending to fix eyeliner that had "seeped" into my eye, I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I almost spontaneously combusted. And in that moment, I thanked God in the quietest, most secluded part of my heart. I thanked Him because I don't do it enough. And I thanked Him for letting me sneak a peak at the true beauty of the gift He bestowed upon us, in the form of a rock solid example, of Life and one of it's smallest of miracles.
aww congrats to your best friend, 3o2balek ya Monmon =)
ReplyDelete(i don't know why that phrase pisses me off hehe it's like u finish school .. 3o2bal el shehada el kbeera! you finish collage .. 3o2bal el gawaz .. you get married , 3o2bal el 3eyal ... you get kids ... 3o2bal matshofohom 3arayes w 3ersan =D .. el howa t7esyyy el nas 3ala tol msta3geleenek kda hehe)
hahaha -- you are so funny Engi, and sooo have a point!! I've been hearing the 3o2balek a LOT these days, and it does get daunting. Can't I be happy for my BFF without this expectation of things to come!? They all mean well though; I think they just want you to experience what they know is a beautiful thing :)
ReplyDelete3o2balak ya amar ;) haha